As those close to me know, I've been on my "weight loss journey" since February of this year. And I have FINALLY not given up or thrown in the towel and said "screw it", and went and ate a package of oreos. I'm not sure what snapped in my brain. It could be knowing we're done having children. It could be that I feel older and more mature. More in control of ME for once in my life. Not sure what the one key thing has been. I know for sure, that my motto has been "Moving Forward". I have messed up sooooo many times since February, but the only thing I did differently this time, was move forward instead of give up.
I've known in the back of my mind that I'd do this post eventually. I wanted to wait until I lost about 25 more pounds. But I just really wanted to share my before and current (Not "After" Yet) pictures. When I'm completely satisfied with my accomplishments and achievements I'll post the before and after. But for now, It's the 'before and current' shots. I'm still a little embarrassed that I was ever this big. Please be kind, and know that this is a very soft spot in my heart still. I see these pictures and I see and feel the pain I know I was feeling. However, I'm so happy now, so full of energy and self worth.
I feel like I have to share.
This is my heaviest EVER. 323 lbs! (my heart breaks to see it)
Yes I included a pic of my backside.
Current: 191 lbs. Yeah, that's still a big number. But keep in mind I'm 5'11" tall! I should weigh about 160-170. I've come soooo far!
Rear shot, just so you can see the comparison!
p.s. Yes these are stinking tight jeans, but guess who's they are? Darren's! Yep, that's right! I'm back into those jeans for the first time in 13 years! I'm almost brought to tears at this journey I've been on.
And just a word to my former "big" self: I love you. You grew 4 beautiful children inside your body. You have taken me everywhere in life. You have held crying babies, cared for friends in need. You have served your callings in the church well. You were broken inside. Scarred from the past. You are healing, I love you big or small, and I'm proud of you!