I must be really hormonal with this pregnancy because I cried like a little baby today when Ethan went to school. My heart is aching because he is gone. I don't know why it's so hard for me. This is now the 4th year he's gone. (He started going full days in Pre-K in Texas when he was 4), and yet, here I am still crying when he goes. I think it may be because in Texas he had a lot of friends and he was always out playing and since we've moved, we've really grown close as a family again since we've had no friends and we've had to depend on each other as a family and do everything together. It was a good experience for us a move because it brought our family closer, but it's sooo hard now, sending him to a school where he knows no one, I know no one and yet I'm supposed to trust that he'll be taken care of and okay. Which I have faith he will, it's so just hard! I'm sure I'll get over it quickly once I can see that he's okay and doing well and meeting friends and such, but right now, I'm so sad! Crazy huh? Everything is so emotional with your first born, because they are the "first" for everything. You do all your "firsts" in parenting with your first born and it's sometimes hard to watch them grow and move on. Time flies too quickly and I'm already dreading the day he leaves on his mission and college. What a boob I am. But I love my kids and I'm proud of them all, and I'm proud of Ethan for being a good big brother and a good example to the younger ones!
Ashton and Lily were sad to see their brother go too.