Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Nervous

I find myself on the eve of being 30, slightly nervous and slightly excited. As I look back, I'm so grateful to be where I am and to have learned all I have thus far. I definitely don't want to go back, but I still can't believe I'm already 30! Life goes by so quickly. It's amazing the journey we go on, and all that we learn on the way. I find my self sometimes wishing I could "re-do" things, but I know there is no turning back, it's always going forward. Time waits for no one. I almost feel like I'm opening a new chapter in my life. I've had our last child, and now it's on to raising all 4 as best as we can. I feel like I finally am able to put a little more attention on my self now. I've spent the last 8 years, being pregnant, changing diapers, feeding babies, and caring for these precious little spirits. Of course the work is not stopping, far from it, I have a 3 month old. But I feel like things are changing in me, and I can now start putting a little more effort on me, and getting back to being who I am and who I want to be. Some times we get lost in the shuffle of mom mode, but I wouldn't trade that for anything. My children are my everything and my all. I'm am so lucky to have the family I have, the husband I have and my life. I am so blessed. I'm so thankful at this point in my life. I'm just rambling, but had to write some thoughts down.
I always thought my birthday was the best birthday in the world, for one, it's on the 1st day of the best month, and it's so close to the 4th. When I was little, I thought the fireworks were for me! :)

8 comments:

The Kamp Family Circus said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLD LADY!!! I forgot to send a card in the mail. Hope you are enjoying your last days in your twenties!! Love ya, Tifdog

Briana said...

Those fireworks ARE for you!! Happy Birthday!!

Cara said...

Well Happy Birthday to you! And yes Robin those fireworks are for you, don't ever forget that! Here's hoping my little girl is born on your special day too! 30 isn't too bad unless you are old and frumpy like Debra! LOL!

Stephanie said...

Happy Birthday! It was neat to read your thoughts. Have a great day and when I see the fireworks...I'll think of you :)

Cassidy said...

Happy Birthday!!!

Kathy said...

I still remember the little girl who used to run around the neighborhood in her swimming suit (she looked a lot like Lily). She turned out really well! Have a great birthday!

Shan said...

I wish I had fireworks for my birthday, too! :) You are wise beyond your years and can't really believe you are ONLY 30!! Love and miss you!

Amber Meager said...

I found this post quite interesting because you spoke of opening a new chapter in your life. I felt the same way when I realized we weren't having any more children. It seems like now that part of you is over and you can finally plan for the future with the family you have and not have to buy things that just might have to accommodate more or that your family could possibly grow out of because you already know you're there! It's a good feeling, but a strange on as well. I'm glad your family is doing good, and your little ones are so beautiful and happy!
And I hope you had a great birthday!