I find myself on the eve of being 30, slightly nervous and slightly excited. As I look back, I'm so grateful to be where I am and to have learned all I have thus far. I definitely don't want to go back, but I still can't believe I'm already 30! Life goes by so quickly. It's amazing the journey we go on, and all that we learn on the way. I find my self sometimes wishing I could "re-do" things, but I know there is no turning back, it's always going forward. Time waits for no one. I almost feel like I'm opening a new chapter in my life. I've had our last child, and now it's on to raising all 4 as best as we can. I feel like I finally am able to put a little more attention on my self now. I've spent the last 8 years, being pregnant, changing diapers, feeding babies, and caring for these precious little spirits. Of course the work is not stopping, far from it, I have a 3 month old. But I feel like things are changing in me, and I can now start putting a little more effort on me, and getting back to being who I am and who I want to be. Some times we get lost in the shuffle of mom mode, but I wouldn't trade that for anything. My children are my everything and my all. I'm am so lucky to have the family I have, the husband I have and my life. I am so blessed. I'm so thankful at this point in my life. I'm just rambling, but had to write some thoughts down.
I always thought my birthday was the best birthday in the world, for one, it's on the 1st day of the best month, and it's so close to the 4th. When I was little, I thought the fireworks were for me! :)